On December 2010 I couldn’t wait to quit my former job, so I’m wishing hard that the last day of the year would come as soon as possible, since that was the day I could officially quit.
I enjoyed 2011 so much. There were so many great things happened that year that I feel kinda sad when it ended.
2012 was sort of in the middle of it. I’m not really looking forward to it to end but I’m also not that sad that it will end in a few minutes now.
2012 was a year that I learn a lot in. More changes that I had to deal with. New ways of seeing things and more understanding of some things that I might not even realize about before. And at the same time a bunch of new stuff I don’t understand, that makes me want to learn even more. I’ve come to this new level of sensitivity, that is hard to handle at first but actually make things easier afterwards.
There were lots of new things that come in my way without a warning. Some were exciting, some were shocking. Most were overwhelming.
I lost my spirit on improvement not so long after the year started. I stopped caring for a while, especially about my life. I stopped doing things that usually excites me. People come and go. Days passed by just like that. I felt tired and sad. Then somehow it was back. I started to get excited about things again. The sparks is so small I was afraid that it’s going to be gone anytime soon. But apparently it decided to stay. Slowly growing even bigger.
Then December came. It’s the month when everything feels normal again. And by normal I mean cool! I started the month by going to a workshop about hydroponics. A week after that I was enjoying this amazing show called INDONESIA:. Two worth-to-watch Indonesian movie were start playing this month: “5 cm.” and “Habibie & Ainun” (I’ll add the link as soon as I finished writing the review). And I get to watch both of them! Both movies had been watched by more than 1 million viewers and still increasing. So proud!
I also started to write on my blog again. Not just one post but-after this one published-six posts in one month. I know it doesn’t sound much. But after no post at all for months, it really is a good progress for me.
At the end, I have to say that I’m grateful for this year. For all the lost and findings. For the hardships and happiness. For each changes happened in it. No matter how hard some of the changes were (or still are) I believe that each was necessary. I know that it was necessary.
Now that the year is about to end, another year is coming. A whole year to live in if I’m lucky enough. I’m actually pretty excited about 2013. My wish is to fill each day better than the day before. To enjoy each moment, make the most out of each second I got. To create more, give a lot more to a lot more people. To not forget to love myself first.
One of the thing that I wish I have done more this year is reading books. So I’m planning to read more books in 2013. To make it more exciting, I’m making this one page on my blog that is going to list every book I have finished reading that year. I asked my sister to do the same thing so we could share what we’ve read, and motivate us to read even more. Feel free to join us.
I know it’s not the year that is important, it’s how we live every single time in our life with all we have. And that’s what I’ll keep learning to do, hoping to get it done better than before. This year, next year, and years after that.
2013, I’m ready to welcome you. Looking forward to have more good surprises and write some awesome stories in each of your pages. Bismillah.
“Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-