2015 Best Nine

2015 had been an amazing year for me. So many life-changing events happened almost out of the blue. ‘God’s plan’ is the best way I could use to explain it all.

The “Best Nine” pictures from Instagram below might give you a glimpse of my “life parade”.

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So, in short, I met this man that turned into my husband 7 months later and then became the father of our daughter 9 months after.

I actually got married in December 2014, but let just say that everything beginning to get more exciting on the year after that.

In 2015…
I moved out of my parents’ house to his parents’ house.
One of my sisters got married.
I found out that I’m pregnant.
My sister found out that she’s pregnant.
My grandma fell and broke her thigh :'(
My uncle got a stroke and was in a comma because of it :((
My uncle passed away four months later T_T
My beautiful daughter was born.

In words, it just looks like a few simple sentences, but in real life it feels like an earthquake of emotions, changes, and consequences.

I do have a struggle dealing with all those events (yes, even the happy ones), I too have a hard time adjusting now and then.

I think everyone has their own struggle, it could be something that seems like nothing for someone else, but it could be hard for the one who’s having the battle. I like this quote: “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” (some said it’s from Plato).

Back to 2015, it’s behind us now. It’s still astonishing looking back, and despite of all the hardship, the biggest feeling I have is gratitude.

Let’s see what’s the best nine of 2016 :)

*) This post was planned to be finished and published in January 2016, but time deceived me. So here I am, in the middle of the year, doing my regular job at the office, can’t wait to go home to my 9 month old daughter

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Reading Update 2: Fantasy Novel is the Best!

I’m on page 299 of Clockwork Angel. Just finished chapter 9 and going to start chapter 10.

My feeling so far: excited. It feels like going home 😀

I’m glad I get to travel the fantasy world again. Where everything is strange yet familiar at the same time. Where you get to understand things while enjoying the world some people found unacceptable.

I love stories and fantasy tells stories in the best way that’s impossible for some other genres to enter. It opens all possibilities. Limitless. Just the way I like it.

Reading Update

So I start reading the fantasy novel today. My choice fell on The Infernal Devices Series: Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare, which is the prequel of The Mortal Instrument Series.

Like what I’ve mention here, hopefully this would be the door to go back to the reading like crazy world. I will start with 50 pages a day.

What are you reading right now? Feel free to share on the comment section 😀 (please).

 

Photograph

Photograph – Ed Sheeran

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it’s the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time’s forever frozen still

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer ’til our eyes meet
You won’t ever be alone, wait for me to come home

Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul
And it’s the only thing that I know, know
I swear it will get easier,
Remember that with every piece of you
Hm, and it’s the only thing we take with us when we die

Hm, we keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts were never broken
And time’s forever frozen still

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer ’til our eyes meet
You won’t ever be alone

And if you hurt me
That’s okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home

You can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were sixteen
Next to your heartbeat where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me
Well, that’s okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go

When I’m away, I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost back on Sixth street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
“Wait for me to come home.” 

Songwriters
Sheeran, Ed / McDaid, Johnny

Published by
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.

[Lyrics and credits was taken from here]
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Photograph is a lovely way to keep beautiful moments last forever. It helps us keep some precious memories.

When you miss someone, someplace, or a certain day of your life you could just look at some pictures of them.

Of course, pictures are just pictures, it cannot bring back the time or rewind the moment. That’s why we should cherish every moment while it happens.

Liven Up My Reading spirit

I miss reading like crazy, read up to 13 books in a month, enjoying every moment of it.

The 2015 book list stop on May. That means three months without reading any book. The truth is, I actually read some books, I just never finish any of them.

I think I will go to fantasy novel to liven up my reading spirit. It usually makes me ready to read everything else.

What kind of books that you like the most?

A New Post. Finally.

Choose one good thing to do in your life, make it a habit then let it change your life.

As simple as that. But not as simple to practice it.

It’s always a challenge to create a new routine, to change what you have usually done for years, especially when there’s no reason to do it but yourself and your wish to be a better person.

Sometimes you want to do lots of things in the same time then ended up doing none of them. Sometimes you just want to do one thing, start doing it then stop after some period of time (like the history of me and this blog).

It’s hard to start, it’s harder to keep doing what you have start. It needs a strong will, a determination, a hard work.

You know what I need right now? A nice lunch.

 

Thoughts vs Habits

WatchThe quote above means we should pay attention to our thoughts, whether it’s negative or positive, because eventually it will affect our destiny. It also means we could create thoughts that will shape our destiny the way we want it to be.

Now, I perceive thought as paradigm, the way we see things. Whether we think something is possible or impossible, what we think we can or can’t do, whether we see the world as abundance of resources, goodness, and happiness for everyone or just a limited amount of them that we should compete to have some.

Whatever we believe, our words and actions will follow. When we consciously decided to reshape our thoughts, it will be easier to form actions that synchronize with it, which then become our habits, that build our character and finally our destiny.

It will not be as effective, or long lasting, if we decided to directly change our habits against what we truly believe. For example, when we think that wake up early is good but not that important for our life schedule and priorities, we might be able to do it for some amount of time, than we back on choosing to sleep longer instead. It will be so hard to keep on giving when you still strongly believe that you don’t have enough and it will just make your life even harder.

Of course, it still need a strong determination and discipline to build the new habit to make us get used to the new consciously chosen thoughts. It works like a circle that effect each other and then work together to shape our character and destiny.

Well, that’s how i see it. How about you?

To Write or Not to Write

Writing random things is harder than I thought. I think I just not able to really let go yet. I still want it to be “good”, while I don’t put enough time and energy to focus on this blog everyday. And so that is how this blog is left without update for more than a month.

I have to say that this is not the only place I find it hard to write. I think my writing muscle is getting weak. There is no cure to it except to write more on daily basis.

Like they said, if you want to be a writer, the most important thing you need to do is write, write, write. Than of course as the fuel to it you need to read, read, read. Read books and whatever outside books. It just like an athlete needs to keep practicing and eating healthy food.

It needs effort and commitment (to write, to do anything that last). I’ve been failing it for so many times, I know. But, hey, i write today. Let’s start from there (I think I should change the blog name into “Starting Over”).

Whatever. The question for me now is: To write or not to write.

Why first. How later.

Why you live determine how you live your life.

Your purposes in life (the why) help you manage your time, make your choices and priorities (the how).

If you don’t know why or you don’t truly feel the why, it will hard to think of any how.

A strong reason gives you a strong sense of purpose (the why). They will become the energy to keep doing what you’re doing and find endless way (the how) to reach those purposes.

A strong why creates a strong will. A strong will creates endless kind of ways.

*I found this note on my cellphone the other day. Wrote this years ago. I think it’s time to let it see the world.

Best Day of My Life

Best Day of My Life – American Authors

I had a dream so big and loud
I jumped so high I touched the clouds
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh
I stretched my hands out to the sky
We danced with monsters through the night
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh

I’m never gonna look back
Woah, never gonna give it up
No, please don’t wake me now

This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife

I howled at the moon with friends
And then the sun came crashing in
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh
But all the possibilities
No limits just epiphanies
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh

I’m never gonna look back
Woah, never gonna give it up
No, just don’t wake me now

This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife

I hear it calling outside my window
I feel it in my soul (soul)
The stars were burning so bright
The sun was out ’til midnight
I say we lose control (control)

This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife
This is gonna be, this is gonna be, this is gonna be
The best day of my life
Everything is looking up, everybody up now
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife

Songwriters
Accetta, Aaron / Shelley, James Adam / Barnett, Zachary / Sanchez, Matthew / Rublin, Dave / Goodman, Michael.

Published by
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

[Lyrics and credits was taken from here]
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It’s a mood booster song for me. I believe that it’s all start from our mind. Our happiness, our desperation.
Once in a while we need to remember all good things that we have, that had been given to us all this long. Things that we might take for granted while some people have been dreaming to have.
We need to remember even the smallest achievement we’ve made amongst our failures, amazing things amongst the bad.
Sometimes, despite of everything, we just have to believe that this is gonna be the best day of our life. Because it might going to be. If we believe.

“What you focus on expands. So focus on what you want, not what you do not want.” [Esther Jno-Charles]